This Page Is Dedicated To Those Who Suffer Depression!

"People who don't know, who say it's self-indulgence, sound callous, but it's not callousness born of indifference; I think it's callousness born of ignorance. That kind of ignorance we've got to get rid of, and little by little I suppose, we will. You say to them, 'It's a pity you don't know. I'm sure that if you knew, not only wouldn't you say that, you'd try to help in one way or another."

 - Mike Wallace, On the Edge of Darkness

Depression is an illness that effects the entire body, its a illness. It affects all ages, all races, all economic groups and both genders. Women, however, suffer from depression almost twice as much as men do.

I know, for I have suffered with depression, thus the poem above I wrote, a year after beginning to recover from this horrible illness.  I didn't even realize what I was gong through, I just know I became a totally different person,  I  was numb to all feelings, for myself and for those I loved and treasured. Due to the fact, I didn't allow myself to see I needed help, it cost me my family and friends. My whole thought process was totally  irrational. After isolating myself from all those I knew, and everything familiar to me, it took coming to hitting the wall  of wanting to die, that I begin to realize I was sick.  I had hidden behind a computer monitor, not having to see faces or allowing anyone to see me. Oh what a perfect way to hide, until one night I just couldn't go on any longer. I had decided I would take my own life.  During the process  of driving my car at  a speed of 100 miles per hour at a concrete wall....before I hit that wall, I saw my whole life flash before me. I saw my family, whom I had felt I had hurt long enough, hurting even more. I saw friends, torn and feeling guilty on not seeing this illness in me.  I still say, that night, God allowed me to feel each and everyone of those in my life, hearts and pain, due to what I was going to do. The only thing I remember, afterwards, was sitting on the roadside, not knowing how I had gotten there.

It had taken me well over a year to work through this illness.  It doesn't' happen overnight, trust me on that. I ask if you have happened across this page, and you or someone you know is going through symptoms of depressions.....Please Get Help! The road that this takes you down, the cost is more then anyone should ever have to bare.  It effects everyone in your life  but more importantly it effects YOU! I've been on both sides of the fence and can now appreciate the pain of both the depressed and the people who seek to help the depressed.